I was relaxing after the shows that night. It had started raining when we left Holyhead…but the spiritual experience I had had radiated within me still.
As always…I started with connecting to the Internet and
proceeding to open up all my tabs about my research. I may or may not have been approaching the line of mania by
this point. Part of me was getting
on my own nerves with this swath of camera lore.
I ran across something much akin to that gold pot at the end
of the rainbow: a news story about the sudden, dramatic drop of the British pound. Now of course, the summer of 2016 saw
the infancy of Brexit, and that brought much economic fear to those parties
invested in the UK in one way or another.
As such, the GBP went south real fast
to slightly above the USD. I did
not see that fact. What my
currency conversion app told me was the opposite; that the GBP went slightly below the USD.
I felt a pang of opportunistic delight the likes of which
I’d not felt since being hired. I took my app’s results as fact. All mental processes were then given to sums in my head,
locating prices at stores, and putting their numbers into my app to satisfy the
part of me that thought I could finally afford a new, pro-spec camera. All of this took over an hour.
At last the expectancy of the day to come hit me in
earnest. I had located stores in
Liverpool, tomorrow’s port. But
even more important was that my good friend Rebecca would be taking a train to Liverpool to see me. We had been planning the meeting for a week or so. She and I have shared much and more,
and can connect like the last pieces of a puzzle. To spend the day with her was going to be intense and
wonderful all at once. These
thoughts quickly replaced my near-manic camera research and I drifted off to
sleep.
But I did wake up excited for both my friend and my to-be
purchase. I’d found a place worth
stopping by. After a hot shower
and a decent breakfast I was ready to whisk myself away toward my heart’s desire.
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Liverpool Parish Church against an old crow's nest in the morning light. |
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The Royal Liver Building and the rest of Pier Head silhouetted in the daylight. |
The morning was cold, pure, and beautiful. This walkable city was a great,
sprawling, regal monument to British history when I first weaved my way through
its downtown roads. None of that
grandeur lost its power today.
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This man and his "peace" flag made a great impact on my morning, that's for sure. Because of my camera phone's irritating habit of taking the shot a second or two after tapping the screen, I wasn't able to get very many shots worthwhile. Of course, that handicap of my phone certainly drove my desire for a better camera, a better tool. |
And lo and behold…the camera store was closed. My excitement was doused slightly, and
then I felt quite light-headed.
Rebecca, and the camera to-be…. I decided to look for Wi-Fi, to check on the GBP and also Rebecca’s whereabouts.
Rebecca, and the camera to-be…. I decided to look for Wi-Fi, to check on the GBP and also Rebecca’s whereabouts.
As luck would have it, I found free wi-fi in the open mall of Liverpool One nearby. The sun continued
to rise, as did my excitement.
Several websites contradicted my conversion app’s
calculations.
Wait.
What? How? Great, I was
getting inconsistent information.
My rational mind was very much hidden by what I wanted to be true: that
the GBP was lower than the USD was certain
to me. How could it not be? My app was showing this! But there were also these credible sources, showing
the exact opposite….
Finally my rational mind emerged. Slowly breaking that shell of my heart’s desire like some
baby snake emerging into the world.
I did not like that snake.
You can’t trust a snake.
You can’t reason with a snake.
…damn; this was no snake.
This was reality.
My plans to move to New York City…they were based on my
savings, and rooted in reality.
The conflict, however—as ever—was that my need for a camera with which
to capture the world was rooted in reality, too. My saxophone is the strongest extension of myself with which
I express and create art, just as the camera I use is the strongest extension
of myself with which I share what I’ve seen.
Thus my heart sank as my rational mind swooped in and rooted
itself firmly. I would still be
spending more than what was shown to me through all those gold-pot-at-the-end-of-the-rainbow
prices. As much as I needed that
great tool as an extension of myself—as a part of how I interact with the
world, as a manifester of all that I see which is beyond words—I held back from
the certainty of purchase.
Still, I walked into the camera store when it opened. Chatted with the staff there. Talked at length with a woman my age
about our mutual favorite brand.
She told me about shooting a wedding with her mirrorless camera; I told
her about shooting with my smartphone.
She reiterated to me about the fact that a good camera doesn’t make a
good photographer; part of me didn’t want to hear that and wished to grab that
camera to-be and make my way out into the proverbial sunset.
Moments passed smoothly inside. I almost missed the fact that it was time for me to meet Rebecca at the train
station. I gave my thanks for the
information and connection…and I was on my way without a purchase.
The part of me that needed my heart’s desire was ambivalent
as I left. It was numb, almost
satisfied with not being riled up, relieved to be resting. The other parts of me were resolved in
the present: to meet my friend, to have a great day in Liverpool with her, and
to make an incredible memory.
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St. George's Hall, across from Lime Street Station |
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The statue of Queen Victoria outside St. George's Hall. |
I was beginning to realize that, perhaps, those other parts of me had
been steering me toward something bigger than a need for a great camera. What, then, was truly my heart’s
desire?
Rebecca and I would not stop talking, and joking, and it was
effortless to be ourselves, to just be as we walked
all over Liverpool. I experienced
the city with her by my side, and sure enough it was a new place all over
again.
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A series of pictures of the Metropolitan Cathedralof Christ The King, the latter of which is from within, a gigantic and fascinating circular layout. |
A series of shots from our walk from the
Metropolitan Cathedral:
Metropolitan Cathedral:
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Liverpool Cathedral |
A series of shots from the waterfront:
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We eventually made it back to Pier Head,
and continued on past the
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The Radio City Tower in the distance. At that time it was a marker for the Lime Street Station as well as a marker for the end of the day. |
When the afternoon began to finally wane, Rebecca and I made our
way to the train station. We sat
at a coffee place, still chatting, still engaged, still natural. Had the many hours really lasted for as long as we'd known? Had we noticed the many hours swiftly, deftly moving by? Was time an issue? Did it exist? Why does time exist for people who connect like the last pieces of a puzzle?
So we were reluctant to part ways. I finally got to my feet, as did she; we stood looking into each other for a moment, codifying all that had been done that day. We embraced, and I wished her the very best. I didn’t know when I would see her again. But we joked and riffed about that as well, surely to lighten the load of our parting—but also because we were able to joke about goodbyes until we meet again.
So we were reluctant to part ways. I finally got to my feet, as did she; we stood looking into each other for a moment, codifying all that had been done that day. We embraced, and I wished her the very best. I didn’t know when I would see her again. But we joked and riffed about that as well, surely to lighten the load of our parting—but also because we were able to joke about goodbyes until we meet again.
I turned at the arched threshold to look her way. Rebecca's deep blue eyes poured into me
again, and she smiled. Involuntarily I did, too.
And I made my way out to this scene with the memory of our
day like rocket fuel propelling me upward.
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Lime Street Station |
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And St. George's, once again. |
My awareness expanded so much that I lost track of it. Then I lost my whole self in the
surroundings. Everything around me
was special, worthy of note and love. Spread like a blanket over Liverpool, I was a kid taking his first steps again. Pure joy. Like
my first contract four years ago, it was wonderfully overwhelming and I was
almost painfully content.
There was one piece of music that called out, roared out, to
me. Of the ends of things, things drawing to a close. A sound of resolution.
Of satisfaction. Each step
I took was a gradual connection to the Earth, with purpose and meaning. Walking meditation is like this, but I
went beyond that with the
music of The Brian Blade Fellowship; this group always makes me go beyond even
walking meditation.
“Embers” is the last track off of Landmarks, the Fellowship’s most recent album. The melody of “Embers” is so singable
that it comes out of the body without effort, and echoes in the memory without
thinking. It is unforgettable in
the best way. It is in the deep
breaths we take to calm ourselves and reflect. At this time this truth was in my core.
“Embers” was like morning’s first light into my
heightened awareness. It made my
being spread gently into that which was familiar but made new by the day’s
blessings. I went, fully, utterly
aware of more than my senses were taking.
I went, fully, utterly aware of that which I had had today, and in
Holyhead the day before, and in Dublin with my family. I went, weaving through Liverpool’s
astounding downtown center and with “Embers” as my angel.
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The gardens behind St. George's Hall. |
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St. John's Beacon, also known as the Radio City Tower |
Once again, I understood greatly how a person’s presence in
travel can do us so much good. And
of course, Rebecca is also British—following the wonderful pattern of locals with
whom I’d interacted over the week.
She isn’t necessarily from Liverpool, but hey; the events of life can’t
always be as balanced and satisfying as a movie. And yet “Embers” was my soundtrack of the day’s closing, and
of the week’s closing, and of my life at that point in time.
Thus I made my way from Liverpool Central, through the lavishly regal buildings, that semblance of history and age almost pulsing around me, like a slumbering diety who may awaken at any moment to give me the knowledge of centuries and millennia.
Thus I made my way from Liverpool Central, through the lavishly regal buildings, that semblance of history and age almost pulsing around me, like a slumbering diety who may awaken at any moment to give me the knowledge of centuries and millennia.
I had dug deep into my awareness in order to realize the present,
and there it was; and me in the middle of it, unabashedly and intensely happy, because life’s magic happens
from and of the depths of our hearts and minds.
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The ship, nestled in the background. |
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The Royal Liver Building and Edward VII. |
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And of course.... The Beatles' Story is nearby here in Pier Head. It's worth the time to experience. |
And you can be sure that I wasn’t thinking about a
camera at this point. It was obvious to me now that my heart’s
desire was so.ething else entirely.
More often than not, travel isn’t just the landmarks and the places...nor capturing them in pictures. This day proved it, because most of all it was Rebecca’s presence that made the day. She was more important than the place. Our connection was a perfect example of that lesson. Like a toddler taking his first steps, I had that newfound perspective which sparked my love of travel, discovery, and life into motion. Thus I boarded the ship with an old chapter closing behind me and a new book in front of me.
More often than not, travel isn’t just the landmarks and the places...nor capturing them in pictures. This day proved it, because most of all it was Rebecca’s presence that made the day. She was more important than the place. Our connection was a perfect example of that lesson. Like a toddler taking his first steps, I had that newfound perspective which sparked my love of travel, discovery, and life into motion. Thus I boarded the ship with an old chapter closing behind me and a new book in front of me.
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